I've been away for a while, experiencing life & suffering from writer's block just a bit but I hope you like. There will be another one right behind it.
State Of Confusion
My mind is racing with thoughts.
Feel like I’m panicking within.
Uncertain about my life & the purpose I serve.
One day I’m fighting my sins.
The next day I battle to be thin.
At the end of the week I love life?
By the last day of the month I wish it would end.
Frustrated with happiness & excited with anger.
The type of thoughts I’m having could put me in danger.
Feeling like I’m stuck in solitary confinement at times.
Serving a mental jail sentence to an ongoing crime.
Decisions to move forward seem to haunt me with fear.
Is it new success or more failure I‘ll encounter this year?
I could go back & forth all day, all night.
Battling with my conscience on wrong & right.
But I’m getting really sick of the constant fight.
When does this tunnel end?
When will I see the light?
Trying not to worry over worldly troubles.
But it consumes me like a wildfire of iniquity.
Thankfully the flames can be extinguished.
But then the flow of water can’t be turned off.
So now I’m drowning in my own thoughts.
I can’t necessarily be saved.
Because my brain is constantly riding a psychological wave.
I know eventually a life raft will be thrown out to save me from myself.
Did any of this even make sense?
Man, I think I really need help!